Saturday, December 30, 2017

Gearing up for 2018...

     Yeah, I know; not much of a gun-ho charge into the new year. Well, it's not been much of an old year, to be truthsome on it. But, at least it's been a bit of a kick in the pants.

     I mean, I now have closure on something. It hurts - oh fuck does it hurt. But it will hurt less over time. I never got to share a whole lot of stuff with her that I desperately wanted to, but I can take what I've learned and move forward in life; maybe even love. Still... it would have been nice to share all these things with her I wanted to.

     I suppose with heartbreak comes the major drive to change. So, I did a character reboot. (No, that does not include the awkward process of learning how to draw the bald spot on the back of my head.) Some of it is just cosmetic; ditching the fedora and tie look for my old college art days. Also lost the beard, and cleaned up the hair. The rest is looking to put more smarts and arts in my head. And also a focus on shoring up those pesky health issues that have been bogging me down.

     I have no idea what 2018 has in store. Living in Silicon Valley has become so much more difficult if you're not a s tech exec or a high ranking political official. After the disaster of Seattle I don't want to simply run away; it didn't do me much good last time. There are other areas in California to live that don't suck; maybe I'll go there, eventually. But I will be better at what opportunities I find.

     So, how about you? Rolling out against big challenges in the new year? Is there no where to go but up, or do you have some momentum behind you from the end of this year? Well, whatever it is, I personally wish you all the best in the coming year.

     Let's make it a good one in 2018!

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

So long, 2017...

What's this?! A comic update?!

     Why yes, it is! Not much of one, I'm sorry to report. The glorious return to California for Neverland Transit Authority has been anything but.

     2017 has proven to be the interesting capper to a trilogy of bad years that has gone from nearly dying of heart failure (Which almost did me in this year, again, and almost to the day of the three year anniversary.), to becoming a social reject for... reasons, I assume, to attempting to find new life in Seattle only to have that blow up in my face because they don't understand the gig economy of Silicon Valley. (Though it's coming their way even now.)

     My return has been about as successful. A string of temp gigs, including house painting for a buddy's business, to landing a gig at a premiere contract that, for being such a place, pays lousy for very tricky work. (Did salaries get worse while I was away? Costs go higher? Or both?)

     Yep, my mom ran off to the east coast mud slick to be with a guy she met in an online support group for people who have had knee replacement. It's actually a funny tale of romance and I'm hoping for all the best for them both. Heck, I put her on the plane, myself.

     I did, in fact, reconnect with the greatest love of my life, Kimberly Murphy, while I was away. We chatted on the phone at least three times a week. It was like when we first met. And, as things started tanking, I admit getting back to her was the biggest drive to coming home. I know we had no promises, but I was really hopeful.

     But hope just isn't enough, I suppose. And while I was making the big fights to get my life straightened back out and fluid, again, she connected with someone she told me was just a friend. Yes, it hurts; in ways I just cannot explain. And I think that's about all I want to say about that.

     2018 is still full of promise, though. I mean, not that it couldn't be much worse than 2017, I suppose. (So not true, but I'm starting to move forward with some positive thought.) Going to be expanding and rebuilding this site. New comics will start back, soon. Station House Radio will be making more regular music mixes, again. I'll also be working to enrich my personal life, as well; including attempting to publish my first legitimate Science Fiction Novel. But more on that in the coming weeks.

     So here's to 2018; let's hope the adults don't wreck it before we can rise and become anew.