Yeah, I know; not much of a gun-ho charge into the new year. Well, it's not been much of an old year, to be truthsome on it. But, at least it's been a bit of a kick in the pants.
I mean, I now have closure on something. It hurts - oh fuck does it hurt. But it will hurt less over time. I never got to share a whole lot of stuff with her that I desperately wanted to, but I can take what I've learned and move forward in life; maybe even love. Still... it would have been nice to share all these things with her I wanted to.
I suppose with heartbreak comes the major drive to change. So, I did a character reboot. (No, that does not include the awkward process of learning how to draw the bald spot on the back of my head.) Some of it is just cosmetic; ditching the fedora and tie look for my old college art days. Also lost the beard, and cleaned up the hair. The rest is looking to put more smarts and arts in my head. And also a focus on shoring up those pesky health issues that have been bogging me down.
I have no idea what 2018 has in store. Living in Silicon Valley has become so much more difficult if you're not a s tech exec or a high ranking political official. After the disaster of Seattle I don't want to simply run away; it didn't do me much good last time. There are other areas in California to live that don't suck; maybe I'll go there, eventually. But I will be better at what opportunities I find.
So, how about you? Rolling out against big challenges in the new year? Is there no where to go but up, or do you have some momentum behind you from the end of this year? Well, whatever it is, I personally wish you all the best in the coming year.
Let's make it a good one in 2018!